Reflections on Consciousness

We’re studying consciousness and trying to notice our states of being as they arise (someday we might notice when they pass, too).

Paying some attention to how our emotions and sensations affect our particular moment-to-moment consciousness has yielded some strange mind thoughts, too.

For instance, why does the name of every Canadian city with a “major” North American sports team have three syllables, and what are the implications for Quebec City’s chances of ever regaining the Nordiques?

We also thought, “Bagels are the devil’s candy.”

We recently went to the salon and made a major change in our appearance. We are having significant challenges adjusting to our new reflection. This is dominating our emotions.

Our reflection is unfamiliar (which has historically been true and lately, before the salon visit, was untrue–a hint of self-sabotage?). Our face was very covered before, and now it’s very visible.

It is a little scary. It reminds us of relatives we resemble, whereas we would prefer to see ourself.

One can’t argue with a mirror. One can try to learn from it.

Trauma therapist asked us to wear clothing we like. We have been doing that.

What we discovered today is that our throat is highly triggering. Wow. We’ve sort of felt this. The sight of our throat makes us feel naked, vulnerable–so much that we want to cover it in the mirror and in front of others.

We may start wearing scarves until we are ready to sit with this issue and listen, learn. Right now we’re wearing tall, zippered sweatshirts.

Has anyone had success moving from not recognizing their reflection to accepting their reflection? What helped you?

It could be that our different me’s are expecting to see themselves in the mirror and instead see our biological body. We recently read that the consciousness doesn’t age, whereas the physical body does.

This is very intriguing data about us, and we are trying to accept with compassion that which arises. We are new to these ideas and would welcome encouragement and your personal insights, even about Canadian sports. Go Blue Jays!

7 thoughts on “Reflections on Consciousness

  1. It’s interesting, because I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately as well, and I even wrote a draft on it today.

    I’ve never felt like my reflection really portrayed me accurately haha. The older I get, the more inaccurate the mirror seems to be. Of course it’s not the mirror, it’s my perception. I still prefer a mirror to photographs. I can’t stand getting my picture taken unless I’m taking it, and that’s because I have control over which side I capture.

    I’ve never really 100% believed that I was my body, I think that’s where it partially stems from for me. That and plenty of ridicule and rejection from my peers when I was younger. I’ve wondered at times if I could add some kind of bodily dysmorphic disorder to my resume, but that’s uncertain. I think most people have a similar disengaged perception when it comes to their reflections, especially as time goes on.

    On a deeper level—and I’m also careful to not rationalize, even though I’d like to—it does seem like consciousness is more… intimately me than the body is. It’s true that my senses provide all these experiences, but consciousness brings them to light and gathers them together; it brings me to light. Through all the changes and altered states, throughout all the years, consciousness still seems to be the same as it ever was.

    I’ve tried to watch closely to see if that continuity is an illusion or not, and so far I haven’t seen any evidence showing that it is. It seems persistent, stable even as everything we’re conscious of seems to always be changing.

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    1. Wow. That really helps to hear mirror confusion may be more widely shared. This consciousness has not looked at body sensations and emotions as transitory. It has sought them or manufactured them to be permanent. We are practicing noticing natural arising. We hope you do post more on this. Thanks for commenting!!!!

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  2. Hey,

    How you are doing well.

    Not sure if I have sent this request before.

    I am scheduling Mental Health Awareness re-blogs for the month of May, can I share a blog post of yours that’s related to the subject in any way.

    Your words can help educate the readers on the subject and give validation to the ones traveling in the same boat.

    Thank you!

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    1. Thank you for your comment, for seeing us. If the universe is all one thing, kindness to another is kindness to self and kindness to self is kindness to another.

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