We’re studying consciousness and trying to notice our states of being as they arise (someday we might notice when they pass, too).
Paying some attention to how our emotions and sensations affect our particular moment-to-moment consciousness has yielded some strange mind thoughts, too.
For instance, why does the name of every Canadian city with a “major” North American sports team have three syllables, and what are the implications for Quebec City’s chances of ever regaining the Nordiques?
We also thought, “Bagels are the devil’s candy.”
We recently went to the salon and made a major change in our appearance. We are having significant challenges adjusting to our new reflection. This is dominating our emotions.
Our reflection is unfamiliar (which has historically been true and lately, before the salon visit, was untrue–a hint of self-sabotage?). Our face was very covered before, and now it’s very visible.
It is a little scary. It reminds us of relatives we resemble, whereas we would prefer to see ourself.
One can’t argue with a mirror. One can try to learn from it.
Trauma therapist asked us to wear clothing we like. We have been doing that.
What we discovered today is that our throat is highly triggering. Wow. We’ve sort of felt this. The sight of our throat makes us feel naked, vulnerable–so much that we want to cover it in the mirror and in front of others.
We may start wearing scarves until we are ready to sit with this issue and listen, learn. Right now we’re wearing tall, zippered sweatshirts.
Has anyone had success moving from not recognizing their reflection to accepting their reflection? What helped you?
It could be that our different me’s are expecting to see themselves in the mirror and instead see our biological body. We recently read that the consciousness doesn’t age, whereas the physical body does.
This is very intriguing data about us, and we are trying to accept with compassion that which arises. We are new to these ideas and would welcome encouragement and your personal insights, even about Canadian sports. Go Blue Jays!