It’s getting close to our worst right now
We tried to help Younger Child. We see the suffering. And Younger Child thinks that fulfillment lies outside us
This is what society teaches Young People: Your value is assigned by teachers as grades, by the number of followers and likes
Do what adults say to you, and you will be rewarded. Don’t do what adults say to do and you will be punished
This is violence
Young People are humans. People. They need to be taught an internal Locus of fulfillment
We use coercion and rewards and manipulation. Why? To control them
Let’s agree not to do this. Let’s agree they are People with real feelings who need our nurturing to survive. Let’s guide them towards inner-fulfillment
Hard to do when adults are not fulfilled from the inside. Who will be the first to liberate and be liberated?
We are trying so hard to heal us, heal family, not quit.
We don’t have to write the end of this story yet
And we want to so that we control how it goes
We have too much anger and fear and trauma and confusion, delusion, grasping, craving
We are so unskilled
And we see ways to lessen suffering
But we can’t force anyone, least of all us
We are not so many things
What are we?
We care enough to be trying. We can’t attach to outcomes. We can try our best and still have no control
Give up control
Try because Love says to try
Try to take more time, be more patient, listen
Try to connect with self, with others
Just keep trying
And then breathe again
Bring attention, awareness, non-judgment. Let time slow down
Let now be just now. Stop listening for the echo of the past or the clanking of the arriving future
Now is the washing machine you hear. The words you type. The clenched gut. The tight jaw. This is aliveness. Awakeness.
This is trying