We sat in our car next to T-3, who sat in a different car, and, as weather was nice, we had our windows down and held therapy that way in T-3’s parking lot
It felt like being near T-3. It felt like therapy
So now our body and mind are wondering if we want to “restart” therapy. That means we feel like we haven’t had therapy since shelter-in-place began
Open up the pain that is being contained by old ways of coping or just keep it contained until the next breakdown?
That could come anyway. We are having high SI
Our body is vibrating and perfectionism OCD is so overwhelming that we feel paralyzed to do ordinary tasks
We feel fear
Is our relief? Is it dread?
If we can get to Now, labels won’t matter. “Unpleasant” will suffice
If we can take one breath, there is no “What should we do?”
Keep simply breathing
Be supported by the couch
No past. No future. Only now. Hungry for dinner. Sore shoulders. Northern Cardinal is Singing. So is American Goldfinch.
Older Child’s voice from basement.