Have brain zaps. Am so hypervigilant that doors opening and closing in our house are sending us up a wall. Tried to nap. No luck.
It might be Xanax withdrawal. We are poor at tapering meds. We have apparently been on it too long. Years. Dangerous.
New meds still has us sleepy. Not as much. And it’s still not helping with sleep.
We are pretty low. Feeling some cumulative stress. Hopelessness.
T-3 agreed to meet us for car therapy and then forgot 😭. T-3 facetimed us for the appointment instead and asked why we were in our car. We said why and T-3 drove to see us.
So can we focus on the outcome instead of the forgetting? We miss T-1 and wonder if we’ll ever hear from T-1 again. Will we be okay? Today, we had an issue arise that only T-1 knows about. T-3 asked us to share. We would not. Why relive the trauma? T-3 wanted to process it together. Too weak to do it.
May go birdwatching tomorrow, so we will look forward to that. We took a 1/2 Xanax. That is calming us. Taper!
We are close to finishing Speak Peace and will post more about how to use needs-focused communication to foster social change if we get a handle on flashbacks and depression symptoms this week